Posted by terra miller on July 26, 2002, at 22:13:46
In reply to Thanks Judy, posted by Dinah on July 25, 2002, at 19:45:54
> I guess I just think it's a bit odd that he recognizes what's happening but lets me loose on the world anyway. Fortunately I don't drive in that state, but he doesn't know that. It's not that I'm asking for extra time, just a quiet place to sit until I can pull myself back into myself.
i forgot something. earlier on i would be so upset that i was barely able to pull myself out the back door. lots of times i would sit on the steps in the hallway until i could pull it together. i was visually foggy and couldn't see and thought i would faint any moment. we've gotten really good at moving through the phases, that i forgot that early on it wasn't as easy. and part of it was that i was still too afraid to let him in on what i was feeling... how out of it i actually was. i didn't want to admit and i felt like a 5 year old... that kind of thing; i didn't want him to know. so i wouldn't say anything and then i would be left to pull myself together. i expect that went on for the whole first year at least. i was in total shock for the whole first year of therapy (i've done 3 years.) that i couldn't see straight.
but my therapist has said many times that he wishes at times that he had a gurney so that he could wheel people out into a recovery room until they could go home... he recognizes that it's really hard to make the transition.
terra
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