Posted by Dena on October 15, 2005, at 18:08:48
In reply to Please pray for Dena., posted by crazy teresa on October 13, 2005, at 21:01:47
Thanks for this prayer request, Teresa... God is answering, because I can feel myself being carried through this.
Those who know me know that I have 7 children... and then, after #7, I had two miscarriages, within 6 months of each other... the first was devastating, at 4 months, and the other happened before I knew I was pregnant.
I grieved them both, named them, and consider them to be my children, whom I'll see one day.
We went on a rampage of a trying-to-conceive frenzy... for months on end, with no conceptions. So, I gave up. Then, God healed my marriage, renewing my mind about sex, so that I was no longer the frigid "Ice Princess"... and I no longer felt the need to fill that void left by two babies who'd died.
I was content with my 7 children, and was even enjoying movng on...
Then, we left our legalistic church, got a new job, and moved to Oregon from Virginia...
finding out, shortly after arriving, that I was pregnant... it was a shocker! We had figured that we were "done", and that my eggs were no longer viable.
So, we adjusted, and were looking forward to this little one.
But two ultrasounds in the past 2 weeks show that there's been no growth, during a time of gestation when growth is phenomenal... also, they couldn't get a heartbeat... it indicates that the baby died at 6.2 weeks, about 2 weeks ago.
I'm preparing to miscarry... we'll soon pray about a name for this baby, and grieve, and let go.
Please pray that I'll miscarry naturally, rather than have to seek medical intervention (either medication or a D&C).
Also, we're praying for guidance re. a vasectomy... we've always been convicted to trust God with our fertility, and with our family size. I'm about to turn 44, and I've now had 3 miscarriages in 2 years. I want to hear God, and not go on emotions, fear, or my own comfort levels.
Thank you for your prayers -- I have been comforted through this...even finding moments of joy, peace and hope.
Shalom, Dena
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