Posted by Temmie on August 20, 2003, at 18:36:25
In reply to Re: Trouble Accessing Current Posts » Temmie, posted by Dena on August 20, 2003, at 18:02:52
Dear Dena ~
I have to go back and read your earlier entries. Good Heavens. I had no idea. How sad to be carrying the body of your lost little soul. Pardon my asking, but is this also comforting in some way? Perhaps not. Perhaps not at all. I remember the joy I had in rubbing my pregnant belly when Jared was inside -- and after he popped out -- still chubby with that ... well -- fat -- how empty it felt ... how lost it seemed that the same rubs didn't bring me the same comfort and pleasure. Yet to be carrying the body of the little soul who has flown back to Heaven ... Is there any comfort at all?
Excuse me. There is no artful way of writing about this.
You are going through an enormous suffering, my dear, and I will pray for you ... without stopping. I am so sorry.
When will you deliver little Samuel? How many weeks gestation did he reach?
Hang on! Love is coming ...
* * * * *
One morning I woke up and I knew
You were really gone
A new day, a new way, and new
eyes to see the dawn
Go your way, I'll go mine and
Carry onThe sky is clearing and the night
Has gone out
The sun, he come, the world
is all full of light
Rejoice, rejoice, we have no choice but
To carry onCarry on
Love is coming
Love is coming to us all~ Crosby, Stills, Nash and Young
* * * * *
Thank you for your kind flowers-in-the-hair renditions of my image. You rather captured my spirit, my dear! I still have the long, blonde hair and the skip in my step, and -- lucky me -- I look forty-something -- but I'm fifty -- ta da -- fifty -- and life is not so bad.
As for you -- I know and understand the "looking into the eyes of a dead woman" phenomena you're talking about. You are grieving, honey. All the love and life of your heart ... much of it, anyhow ... has -- found little cause for expression. You are grieving, and you are a young, healthy, beautiful soul -- and you will get through this experience ....
And you will always be Samuel's mother ....
I feel ... funny ... mixing silly talk about my appearance with such serious discussion here. Forgive me.
We are all here for you.
Temmie
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