Posted by Miller on March 7, 2003, at 0:40:06
In reply to Re: Sweet Dena, posted by Dena on March 6, 2003, at 22:47:35
Dena,
"So, now, as an adult who's no longer in that unsafe environment, I can't seem to access those feelings. Does this relate to what you were describing, or have I gone off onto a self-absorbed rabbit trail? "
You are not off track on this. I think maybe the feelings I denied as a child, young adult, and even now have turned into negative emotions. I can't seem to let myself access positive emotions or beliefs. Maybe that's why I get suicidal at times.
"can you tell me how you've lost your husband?"
Sorry. I forget that some people don't read each board. My husband and I ahve been having problems for quite a while. He is now on the verge of tossing in the towel. A couple of days ago he told me if he gets a job offer out of state, he will not ask me to go. He is saying that he doesn't know if he can handle my depression because of the suicide attempts. I feel as if our lives are about to separate. I truly love him. However, I now feel he is using my depression as an excuse. I think he forgets he was feeling the same way before my suicide attempts.
"I'll pray that God will restore us to the emotionally-free women we were designed to be. Would you be willing to pray for me about this too?"
Yes, Dena, of course. I believe all of us need some support to help achieve joy. I don't believe any of us will ever be "emotionally free" but I think there is a point when emotions become more of an understanding than a struggle. That's the point you and I need to get to. Of course I will pray for you.
Thank you so much for helping me in my struggles, Dena.
-Jyl
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