Posted by Racer on November 21, 2006, at 18:26:52
In reply to Anyone scared when losing weight?, posted by ElaineM on November 21, 2006, at 13:34:49
Yes. And no. But that's only because I'm crazy ;-)
Maybe because I never had any treatment for this before, but at the start of each episode, when I knew my weight was getting towards my danger zone, I would get excited and start working to lose more. (Hm... Reading that, it sounds to me as though maybe my true danger zone is higher than I'd thought? Maybe by the time I get into what I thought was the danger zone, I'm already into the disorder? Something to think about...) So, in that sense, I didn't get scared by losing weight.
On the other hand, when I'm in a high enough weight range, I know that I can't try to lose weight, and that it's a very bad thing for me to lose weight. (Which is a really tough position to be in, since people will sometimes tell me I need to lose weight, or offer to help me lose weight. They mean well, but even after I tell them that I have a history of AN and CAN'T diet, they still tell me it's OK and they can help me do it in a healthy way. {sigh} People don't seem to get it, you know?) In those times, I still hate my huge body, and have a lot of trouble with that side of it, but I do know not to try to do anything about it, and I don't. Episodes have never been triggered by voluntary dieting for me, they've always started when I've lost weight for other reasons -- and then keep going.
So, I think I can empathize with you, but I don't experience quite the same thing. I'm very sorry you're having this problem, though, and hope things get better soon.
Have you tried telling your doctor that you're worried about your weight loss, AND worried that he'll think it's AN rather than something "real?" Maybe if you bring it up and include that part he'll be more receptive? If you do that, do report on it, OK? And good luck to you.
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