Posted by verne on May 12, 2009, at 18:58:31
In reply to Re: Online Love » verne, posted by Sigismund on May 8, 2009, at 2:04:08
Hey Sig,
The babblelites meet annually and sometimes on their own. Some babble relationships have evolved into something in the real life - or what, we in the know, like to call the matrix.
Actually, I don't know anything and I'm adrift. I'm surprised I wasn't blocked for being so downright mean and sarcastic to Jai (sorry again) and wish to appeal my non-block. Review my posts and at least find the sarcasm and block me for a year.
Some of you do meet and find happiness. I don't get it, this love with words that people "speak" online. I think Harold Pinter was getting at this with plays like "Homecoming" and "The Caretaker"
Just after I renounced "online romance" I saw the movie, "Message in a Bottle" and, although repelled, it told me this sort of thing was real for some people.
So I sincerely apologize to the group and Jai, in particular, for being so insensitive. I also think I brought it on with my flirtatious social post. So, in a way, I ambushed the first person to respond.
I'm trying to make a case, that I should have been blocked.
What drives me? I react badly to complements, yet worry about what people think about me. I live a tortured life. I rarely venture past the front porch. I'm in tears about the flickers losing their nest to the starlings. I can barely deal with life one day to the next.
My plan is to freeze myself to death this next winter. Don't call 911! It's Spring. I'm just tying up lose ends and waiting (9 months) until the temp drops low enough and get 2 qts vodka, which I haven't drank in 25 years, and deepfreeze myself. Everyone will think it was an accident. I can't and don't have insurance so that won't be a motive.
That's where I'm at. But, don't start calling the authorities since I'm happily alive, want to live, and my "accident" is at least 8-9 months off.
Sorry, this isn't administrative. I'm not in any immediate danger. Just tying up loose ends, hanging in there until the first really good freeze. Lots may change. That's just where I'm at now. Not even terminal or in bad health. I guess depression can do that to a person.
Got sidetracked. Just meant to apologize for the way I reacted to Jai's post about love. I used to cut myself if someone even said something nice about me or I got good grades. (Hello, fellow borderliners)
I should be blocked (please reconsider for the group's sake, Dr Bob. I won't be hurt).
Alcohol and borderline personality disorder is a scary combination. Again, I'm hopeful, making it longer between slips, getting support, may turn it around.
Most people at online poker games hate me in the end, perhaps, you will learn to.
love verne
after numerous attempts I couldn't get the book or DVD links to work. I would change one and the rest would reset.
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