Posted by rjlockhart37 on March 10, 2022, at 22:54:07
In reply to Re: sleep deprivation log, posted by rjlockhart37 on March 10, 2022, at 22:27:37
i'm hypomanic right now, yes ... i might as well write what i need to write. So..people say trauma happens during childhood that can cause mental dysfunctions later in life. I had a happy childhood, loving family, it was wonderful, i want to go back. The truma that happened to me was nothing, like sexual abuse. I was ripped off medications, my parents turned against me, they ripped off dexedrine ... which was helping me function, she called the doctor and said no more dexedrine. A doctor is suppost to only see the patient. It was abuse happening at home, so i went to my doctor, and told him, i have never seen evil in the face before, but i did, he said im discharging you, your gonna have to go to rehabilitation facility. I came to my doctor to tell him about the abuse that was happening. Some kind of evil spirit that was jumping around into people, i was in slight out of mind state because i thought there was a spirit that was possessing my parents, the doctor, my brother, but it was legitmate. So, that pain that happened in 2009-2010. I've known not to be a victime from trauma, even something thinking using black magic and But im a chirstain, i follow jesus, don't evil back to evil. So, that has caused anger, going into a rage, having thoughts of assassinating the abuse doers. I'm just a regular guy, i don't have a phone to call and ask to eliminatw someone because they did wrong. I'm follower jesus, he said specifally to turn the cheek and take persecution. It's natural to want to fight back. Anways, i need to get this anger, im not a angry person, im not, my friends say im a sweet guy. But this rage that was created from that trauma, i need a therapist. So, basically in turn i've turned to god, and i've been curious about the supernatural relnn for help, crazy and i know it, who knows open a portal to the dark side and have bad events happen. No, thank you God is the only reason im here, and were here to save people from hell. Hell is just a word in this life, when you die and realize you actually in hell, absolute loss of hope, That's why don't talk down and patronize people, let them know there is terrible place that people go too, if there not saved, and theirs sins are recorded in their book, their life book. I don't like people who preach about jesus and talk down to people, you have to let them know, personally as a friend there is a place of suffering indescrable, and warn them. Ok anyways, religious rants, and rants about the past. I want to help people, crete ideas i don't care about being rich, no, finding a path in life getting envolved in world events, and doing goodness. Ok, i'm slowing down, hypomanic episode happening currently. It will pass soon and ill get depressed for a few days. Thank you for reading, your valuable and don't forget it. End of log
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