Posted by b2chica on October 3, 2012, at 12:46:47
In reply to Re: PS. what should i do? » b2chica, posted by phidippus on October 3, 2012, at 12:27:09
>describe psychosis?
with TEVA zyprexa at 10 after 2 or three days i became raging paranoia, had to leave work cuz "everyone was staring at me, whispering things, they were going to tell the director of dept about my illness and i was sure she is going to do what she can to fire me." i was getting visual illusions about every 15min or so (very freq.) i was getting messages from whom i can only guess was the dead to give to others.
>Geodon psychosis?
i became enraged and started going to the 'seady' side of town looking for a gun. was having constant visuals of myself putting the metal gun in my mouth (was tasting the metal), and othertimes to my head feeling the pressure of the explosion. i was sure that others wanted me dead as well. very angry but lots of energy. other visuals like bugs and such. but the self-injury/death visuals were the worst.i'm feeling more stable right now for the time being. i took gabapentin about 10:30 so its about fully kicked in now. (i notice in 10 min lethargy but 2 hours before it seems to help mood).
but yesterday i did a full cycle in one day, anxiety in morning, agitation afternoon. by the time i got home it was all i could do to lay down and dream of death. i fell asleep about 6, woke up 8:30 help put kids to bed. had cereal and about 9 or 9:30 went to sleep again.if i go a full cycle again today i will call pdoc and speak with him.
and if upping zyprexa doesnt help i'll do hospital next week.im thinking logically right now so anyway, thats the plan as i see things now.
thanks Eric.
"What is madness, but nobility of soul at odds with circumstance.
The day is on Fire, and i know the purity of pure despair."
Theodore Roethke
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