Posted by floatingbridge on November 4, 2010, at 17:21:13
In reply to Re: does anyone not want to get better? » floatingbridge, posted by SLS on November 4, 2010, at 15:59:52
> If I were to act the way I feel, I would remain mute and stare into space; not doing the things necesssary to survive independently. Somehow, it sounds more comfortable and peaceful to give up and to no longer push. The effort to function and remain a part of society is immense and can be overwhelming. Such effort is nothing short of heroic.
>You've dealt with this for sometime. Have you been here before? I guess you have. Does this sort of crisis reoccur?You have found something worthwhile?
> Push, push, push.
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> It is always push, push, push.
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> It gets old.Yes, very, very old.
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> Why bother?I really am not sure. My child. But even that can not be enough (theoretically speaking today).
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> To discover the answer to this question is to examine your psyche for its motivations to remain alive and reach for the best quality of life that your limited resources will allow, despite the enormous effort required to accomplish this. It is an investigation of character.Scott, I don't have confidence in my
character. My psyche's motivation to be alive.... Yes, I'm still here despite any ambivalence.You set the bar high. I like that. Thanks.
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C-PTSD currently set to twitch. MDD and comorbid health issues. Chronic fatigue and pain.
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