Posted by Brainbeard on November 4, 2010, at 15:46:44
In reply to does anyone not want to get better?, posted by floatingbridge on November 4, 2010, at 13:57:21
> Sometimes I feel a great 'no'. Just no.
> (.....)
> Has anyone else felt (or feel) this way?I recognize the feeling, yes. Sometimes I have a feeling that goes with the repetitive thought: 'I don't want to' - period. I mean, it's not that I don't want something specific, but rather that my will is quitting wanting altogether in an act of utter despair.
Freud theorized about what he called 'secondary gain', by which he meant that psychic illness always has some gain to offer, otherwise our psyche wouldn't invest so much in the illness. OCD, for one thing, and especially compulsions, offers an addictive chain of little bursts of dopamine rewards. With every check, every conciliary act, the reward system pumps itself up - for the next check, the next act... It's never enough. Like gambling. Much like gambling.
Current meds: clomipramine 225mg, fluvoxamine (Luvox) 50mg
As needed: bethanechol 25-50mg, oxazepam 5-10mg
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