Posted by maxime on October 31, 2010, at 15:28:13
In reply to Re: Thinking of coming off meds NO WAY! » maxime, posted by floatingbridge on October 31, 2010, at 14:54:42
Thank you for the hugs, I needed them.
I told my pdoc about the pain and how bad it was. I told him that it got worse after I removed the Notrip. and he said that can happen. He said it as if it were so normal for me to have all this pain.
I told my endo and her response was "lose some of the weight". As if that were the answer to everything.
I am really confused because I have had depression for years and years and I never had this kind of physical pain.
Great now I am crying.
I don't know which doctor is supposed to help me. I spoke to my GP as well but she didn't really respond to my problem. So who do I go to? There aren't enough doctors in Montreal to jump around and find the right one and I don't which one is the right one. I thought it would be my pdoc because there is no rhyme or reason as to why I am feeling this way. Then I thought, no it would be my endo because I have thyroid problems and maybe it has to do with that. Then I thought, no I should see my GP. I can't say for sure, but I think they think I am drug seeking. I am not. I am answer seeking and I am frustrated. And when I am frustrated I cry ... A LOT. That's where I am today.
Thank you for your kind words. I needed them.
> First, hugs Maxime. That is if you could stand them right now.
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> Honestly, to have pain heaped on top of mental illness....
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> It's an insult, an absolute last straw.
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> Maxime, does your pdoc know about the pain? It needs to be treated. It really does.
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> And I know something about your pain. So do others. We're listening. I am, and I'm not the only one.
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> For some reason, there is something worthwhile enough to keep you here--whatever it, God bless it. I care about
> you. If you keep trying, I'll be pulling, and I won't be alone.
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> Whenever you get angry and need to shake a fist at someone, IMHO God can take it. As for you, you've had enough. Give yourself the break you give others. If this pain is new bad news, there are others here to help with that.
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> Medication did not cause my pain, despite what some posters have the right to believe. Nor do I think (IMHO) it is causing yours. Stress, depression, fatigue, genetics. But not you. And not your medication.
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> Oh dear, please be kind to you.
Bipolar Type 2, ED-NOS, Self-hatred
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Being happy doesn´t mean the pain is gone. you just bury it deeper.
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