Posted by ed_uk2010 on August 20, 2010, at 17:48:27
In reply to Re: I feel horrible, posted by Dima on August 20, 2010, at 13:41:28
It sounds like major depression. Depression does not necessary mean that you will feel 'sad'. Many of the symptoms which you mention are very typical of depression eg. lack of enjoyment of anything (anhedonia), constant feeling of distress which is difficult to describe and not clearly caused by any external situation, difficulty concentrating, loss of libido, low energy and insomnia.
Can you tell us more about the blurry thoughts which are jumping around your head? I know this is difficult to describe. Are the thoughts very repetitive?
Also, did you experience any symptoms when you were a young child or only as a teenager? Any symptoms noticed by your family or teachers?
Finally, have you ever experienced periods where you felt very excited, impulsive, or energetic? Thoughts racing through your head, many new ideas, rapid speech, reduced need to sleep?
> Any of these symptoms mean anything that could help?
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> > I'd like to describe in detail exactly how I feel. The feeling is not one I recognize as sadness or normal anxiety. It just feels "bad". I feel like I can't think. I can't focus enough to read or enjoy anything. The thoughts themselves feel "blurry" like I'm not completely sure what they are. And it feels like I have no control over what I think about. They jump around every few seconds, and when I try to focus on anything it feels almost like five other thoughts are distracting me the whole time.
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> > I don't enjoy a single second in the day. Watching tv is all I do every day because it slightly distracts me from thinking about how bad I feel. It's not actually entertaining because I feel no emotion and can't even focus on any idea in the show for very long.
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> > Low to no sex drive.
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> > Low physical energy. Muscles feel much weaker after any exercise very faster and more intensely than they should.
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> > I have social anxiety. I mostly just feel that I have nothing at all to say and feel awkward and I'm not interested in conversations themselves at all. They bring no enjoyment.
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> > Insomnia. Long time falling asleep and wake up early or at night.
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> > I've experienced all of this for years staying about the same level where I could still finish high school and start college. Everything got a lot more intense in January though. I dropped to a level where I can barely function on my own, not able to even consider school or work with this condition. If I wait too long without going back to college I'll lose my full scholarship and we don't really have any money to pay for college, so I really want to get better!
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