Posted by Dima on August 20, 2010, at 13:41:28
In reply to Re: I feel horrible, posted by Dima on August 19, 2010, at 17:42:38
Any of these symptoms mean anything that could help?
> I'd like to describe in detail exactly how I feel. The feeling is not one I recognize as sadness or normal anxiety. It just feels "bad". I feel like I can't think. I can't focus enough to read or enjoy anything. The thoughts themselves feel "blurry" like I'm not completely sure what they are. And it feels like I have no control over what I think about. They jump around every few seconds, and when I try to focus on anything it feels almost like five other thoughts are distracting me the whole time.
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> I don't enjoy a single second in the day. Watching tv is all I do every day because it slightly distracts me from thinking about how bad I feel. It's not actually entertaining because I feel no emotion and can't even focus on any idea in the show for very long.
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> Low to no sex drive.
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> Low physical energy. Muscles feel much weaker after any exercise very faster and more intensely than they should.
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> I have social anxiety. I mostly just feel that I have nothing at all to say and feel awkward and I'm not interested in conversations themselves at all. They bring no enjoyment.
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> Insomnia. Long time falling asleep and wake up early or at night.
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> I've experienced all of this for years staying about the same level where I could still finish high school and start college. Everything got a lot more intense in January though. I dropped to a level where I can barely function on my own, not able to even consider school or work with this condition. If I wait too long without going back to college I'll lose my full scholarship and we don't really have any money to pay for college, so I really want to get better!
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