Posted by jade k on July 23, 2010, at 14:02:17
In reply to What's going on under my meds?, posted by Dan_MI on July 23, 2010, at 10:21:31
Hi Dan, not sure if we've posted before, so nice to meet you :-)
> When I was severely depressed, I developed a strange sort of coping mechanism. I would watch TV and sort of glean comfort off of TV shows, commercials, graphics, music, etc.. I would yearn for winter and the holidays, snow and christmas lights, chopping wood and making a fire...all sorts of burrowing and nesting behavior. What's more I would appreciate SUV's and want to visit places like North Dakota.
I think lots of people are that way when they're down. Maybe wanting to feel safe? At home, and in their community? And nesting with family! I think that would sound good to anyone.
> From what I can surmise, they stem from two competing desires that occur in depression: to be alone and to be part of a community.
I can understand this easily enough. I have those same competing desires. I'm not sure what the answer to that is though. Maybe both?
> Over the last month or so, they have been occuring and they are occurring more frequently. What was once a reminder of something from my past has been rolling around in my head to the point of annoyance lately. I can't help but wonder if there is something going on in my brain, and my meds are behaving like aspirin or tylenol. I have always hoped that the meds, especially lithium, would be disease-modifying agents rather than analgesics.Not sure what you mean but I sure hope you feel better soon. What do you think that would take? Sounds like your meds are making you uncomfortable, maybe a reevaluation?
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> And, I wonder, would these seductive splashes of comfort morph into mania (ie: rolling around in my head uncontrollably) or if they are the entrance to the trail which will eventually lead to my suicide (ie: growing isolation and delusion)I hope not! Is there someone to talk to that can help you understand things better? Sounds like that would help a lot.
>OR if I just need to relax (but these feeling are very well-defined and recognizable).
I think this sounds like what you need. Me too!
I feel very in control of myself lately, I geuss it comes from feeling better to some degree. I would think that would give one a calming feeling, to know how to relax, even when things are rolling around in your head as you described.
> I've never tried to put this phenomenon into words, and I can see I've done a poor job, but I'm wondering if someone else has a word/description?I wish I could help with that, I'm not sure I understand enough to clarify it further. Sorry!
Maybe another poster will chime in, Good Luck!
"Writing what you feel can be extremly hard." Phillipa
I agree with that though:-)
~Jade
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