Posted by linkadge on July 23, 2010, at 15:53:19
In reply to What's going on under my meds?, posted by Dan_MI on July 23, 2010, at 10:21:31
The same thing happens with me. I cycle between the need to be part of a community and the need to be alone.
Many times I like being alone. I hate being around others, and I just like the silence and my green tea. Although this cycle changes and I begin to feel like a loser for spending so much time alone.
I think the SSRI's work as social sensitizers. Like Ecstacy, they seem to enhance social bonding, yet this often just leads me down the wrong path. Friends are great so that you don't feel alone, but theres a lot of wasting time caring what others think and conforming.
I don't know of too many meds that are truly disease modifying. I'm back in a med rejection stint.
Lets put it this way, I almost like being miserable and bitter - yet myself. I'm better able to see the whole picture, to reflect. When I'm on AD's I can't reflect about anything, I can't see the whole picture.
Most of these meds are not limbic selective. They shut down the limbic system as well as cortex. I think SSRI's probably lead to cortical atrophy. I just can't see the big picture when I'm numbed out on TCA.
Part of me, is defined by my ability to feel pain. You take that away, and its very unidimentional. Its like watching a movie where nothing bad, risky, scarry, interesting or beautiful happens. Who would watch that?
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