Posted by zonked on June 25, 2010, at 11:28:35
In reply to Re: MARPLAN anyone???? » SLS, posted by europerep on June 25, 2010, at 10:32:58
> hey there..
I know you were probably addressing Scott, and Scott I hope you don't mind but since his post seems to apply to me as well I'd like to respond too.
> uhmm, if you allow me, there are two questions I'd like to ask you.. I haven't ever read anything about your age, would you be willing to disclose that information? :-) I am just curious about that..Late 20s. Male, white, american.
> also, it's probably a stupid question, but have you done psychotherapy for a sufficiently long time in the past?
Here's where I believe I've made my mistake with therapy in the past. During depressions, I haven't found it helpful, maybe because I didn't have the energy to stick with it. How do you cram a life full of depressive thoughts into two weeks? And week after week it's the same, anhedonia, lack of energy/motivation, regardless of circumstances.
During remissions is where I may have screwed up.. I considered myself busy enough with work and was functioning, so why waste the time and money? Perhaps if I had, I would have had the "coping skills" to prevent full blown depressive relapse. Or at least, that's the theory.
> especially if the answer to the latter question is yes, is there no way for you to try something "outside the box".. I once read about you having tried buprenorphine, and since you are not on it anymore, I guess it didn't work, right?I have never tried it myself or have even brought it up with a doc, but I am getting that desperate.
> I remember something on wiki about the "compassionate prescription act" or something, which allows people to take medication that is in development, if these people profit from it, it's a serious disease, there are no other possibilities blabla.. didn't you once mention clorgyline or something like that, i.e. MAOIs not being prescribed anymore? and have you had one psychiatrist throughout all the time, favorably at a university clinic? I was wondering whether these drugs are no longer marketed, or whether prescription or "giving out to patients" is formally banned by the FDA.. because if not, maybe your doc could get ahold of one these substances? yeah I know, little chances..
> ok, something else? sounds stupid, but have you actually tried marihuana? really good, highly potent marihuana can totally help with depression, it's one of the possible indications for which healthCanada allows medical marijuana use.
Gives me panic attacks. I don't touch schedule I drugs or alcohol.
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> or another thing yet.. did you see my thread on new phase II clinical trials of EVT101? it's still up somewhere in the list, if not, search for EVT101.. I guess you wouldn't be admitted to a study because you have had more than three treatment regimes that didn't work, but maybe your doc could strike a deal with one of the responsables to have basically a n=1 study going, because efficacy in you would probably be the most effective way to prove its worthiness in TRD.. far-fetched idea, I know.. or, try to get ahold of medical ketamine.. it's probably not a good idea for longterm-use, but if it works, you have something to look forward to when and if EVT101 will make it to the market..Ketamine scares the crap outta me, but I'll look into the research drug--thank you!
Bleh. I'll keep trying until I find something to pull me out of this...I am tired of not feeling like me.
I think I'd be better off if I had the financial resources to see a real expert (like I did when I worked), as frequently as necessary but it's catch-22--disability is a pittance and I won't have money again until I can work.
-z
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