Posted by zonked on June 24, 2010, at 15:33:20
In reply to Re: MARPLAN anyone???? » zonked, posted by SLS on June 24, 2010, at 15:04:10
Scott,
Mood is definitely variable (I haven't felt good since last Friday.)
I am hoping beyond hope I get a more consistent effect in the next two weeks--can't see the pdoc before then.
I wish I had the money to see an expert psychopharmacologist out of pocket. (It seems like the best ones are cash only, Medicare/Medicaid? Yeah, right!)
I keep thinking, if I could get a doc to prescribe super-high-dose Parnate and go along with it, or buprenorphine, I'd probably be okay.
I don't have the energy to even think of starting that process though. Hi, before I waste money and time, here is my super-abbreviated-history over the phone, would you give me something that works? Or am I going to throw my money down the drain by making this appointment?
Doc mentioned Synthroid and asked me if my testosterone levels had been checked recently, as a matter of fact I asked my GP two weeks prior for both tests (TSH is 2.1 and testosterone was in the low 400s). My hopes are not high. It would be interesting, though, if the underlying cause for all of this was hormonal. We'll see.
I cried this morning, and am in tears now--my Mom, who's the sunshine in my life, asked me if I wanted to hang out this weekend and I had to decline--she can't handle being around me depressed. She has a terminal brain cancer and I want to get better before it starts getting her.
Most of the time though, I just can't cry--I am flat. You and I are a lot alike--we both got blips from Marplan and no consistent effect. I wonder what's next?
I mentioned buprenorphine to a counselor working with me--she actually claimed to be familiar with the Harvard study--but her response was something along the lines of: "do you know how bad off you need to get that?". Well, chronic unremitting depression and all of the damned trials and therapy and supplements--I think I am bad enough off... (BTW, has bupe ever crossed your mind?)
I find it appalling that doctors hand out brain damaging antipsychotics like crazy for every psychiatric complaint and would rather do a controlled electrocution (ECT) with potentially serious cognitive and memory side effects than use something proven to work in 90% of refractory patients. (Just my opinion.)
Sorry I'm so bitter today... At least I know I'm not alone in my struggle. We'll get there. You're a good guy--thanks for your support. *hug*
-z
> Hi Zonked.
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> How are things going with Marplan? I noticed in one of your posts that your mood was variable. I hope that things will even out for you.
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> I discontinued Marplan a few days ago, mainly because of the side effects of muscle weakness and pain. It wasn't helping, though.
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> - Scott
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