Posted by Hunk20 on May 23, 2010, at 23:51:56
In reply to Re: me after this experience » Hunk20, posted by Phillipa on May 23, 2010, at 18:26:23
thanks phillipa. well it wasnt all nardil of course.. i think people often tend to give the drug too much credit. You know covering things up with meds and staying partly in denial.
It was me, the situation and the support of nardil.
It was that i didnt run back home to germany even though it seemed like my stay in the usa isnt good for me anymore(wich of course my brother told me;). The last thing i wanted is that everything like it used to be again. Got kicked outta the host family because i spoke up, lived in a hotel room, am all alone in a foreign country with all this. Risked cutting myself financially, went to therapy even though i couldnt really pay it. I had the attitude f*ck it im going through whatever needs to be gone through. I risked my life for it.
But thats exactly what i needed to do. Stayed here even though the troubles coming. Nardil is exactly the kinda support i need. This is the place and time to go through it.
I am now speaking up against my folks in denial. Bro and Dad. My bro tries to manipulate me back to the "me" he likes. He quit contact to me. He is sick. I told him that i cant be manipulated and that its sad that he tries to. And i told him now at least i know that our friendship was fake. Gotta tell the devil that you know what he is.I hope these guys wake up one day. Its hard to watch all this and of course i miss my real brother and father. These guys are sick.
Thanks for the good words. I think ill be in the psychology part of the forum for a while to not overload the med forum with my stories;)
If you have questions about nardil or comments please go ahead.
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