Posted by Girlnterrupted78 on November 1, 2009, at 2:05:44
In reply to Re: Parnate losing effectiveness. Why?? Help please. » Girlnterrupted78, posted by Maxime on October 31, 2009, at 16:50:20
> God, how could you feel too good? I don't understand that comment at all.
I know, it's horrible to think my doctor finds it "too good".When I told him I had suddenly become friendly and pleasant, and would smile or strike conversations with strangers easily, he didn't say much. But now that I told him that Parnate lost some of its potency and I feel more subdued and not that friendly anymore, he said "what you were feeling before was just 'too good'" Almost like if it was a negative thing to feel that way.
Too good for what??!!! It infuriates me to hear him talk like that. Like if I didn't deserve to feel good and should not have a right to feel friendly and pleasant. Same thing happened when I described Celexa as being 3 extra layers of emotional skin that would never come off in a whole year and protected me from everything. He said, kind of demeaningly "well, that's too good.. , not sure that's normal."
It makes me wonder if he wants me to feel just a little good? Or maybe just flat, to avoid anything close to what I had already experienced with 2 antidepressants? Because both are just "too good".
Sorry, I could write about this forever, it frustrates and infuriates me so much that I could stab myself over it.
Next time he sees me he will have to listen to me on this.
Thanks for your support. In these moments, the last thing I need is to hear is that my initial response was "too good". For the first (ok, second after Celexa) time in my life I felt normal and rid of that chronic emotional distress. But he claims that such recovery was just 'too good' and not what we're aiming for. I guess we're aiming to achieve some slight (as opposed to severe) chronic emotional distress and a flat face, with no emotions, no friendliness and nevermind smiling or joking..just to make sure it never gets to be "too good". arhhggg
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