Posted by ColoradoSnowflake on April 25, 2009, at 10:54:10
In reply to Anxiety and Depression cause you to feel this bad?, posted by Cseagraves on April 16, 2009, at 13:08:54
Courtney, I just read your post and thought you were talking about ME! I was anxious all my life. I used alcohol and dexedrine for years to self-medicate. I was a high achiever, very active (yes d/r,great skier) until dexedrine turned on me, and then quit alcohol (thank you A.A.). I fell into the worst deep black slimy hole you can imagine. I was like in a coma. never slept but never awake, could barely speak, couldn't even watch tv, it didn't make sense; couldn't read, just wanted to kill myself but was too confused to do it. I, also, felt my kids would be better off without me. I didn't go to the dr. or even leave the house but a few times for TWO YEARS. My husband was a bad alcoholic, became unable to work, and just lurched around the house. And none of our neighbors or our kids really knew what was happening. I finally made it to the dr (Kaiser) and got a little treatment, but not much. I've gotten some better over the years bit by bit. I have a pretty good pdoc at Kaiser now. Now I'm chronic and treatment resisent. I can't take any of the ss's; migraines and no balance. Benzos and anything like remeron make me so sleepy and foggy the next day it isn't worth it. Lithium did nothing. About the only thing I can tolerate is Wellbutrin. I don't have any side effects from it but it only takes a bit of the depression away. The tricyclics make me so sleepy and hungry I can't stand it. Lamictal triggered my Rheumatoid Arthritis so bad (and FAST) that I couldn't walk. So next week I am going on Parnate with amytriptiline. I have read a lot of really positive things about Parnate on this board and "ask a patient and revolution-health that I am really excited and hopeful to start it! I would really love to have a few years of feeling normal before Im too old to care (or know)! I hope your docs can help you ASAP so you don't get "chronic" like I am. Boy do I ever know how you feel! Take care, Gayle
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