Posted by Zana on April 17, 2009, at 8:58:45
In reply to Re: Anxiety and Depression cause you to feel this bad?, posted by Cseagraves on April 16, 2009, at 18:32:25
Miraculously, my days are getting better. Pristiq has made a big difference which is surprising since it's a buffed up Effexor and I bombed on
effexor and every other SSRI.
I really think you need to find a pdoc and find some meds that work for you. Like Scott has said to me, the better the records you can keep, reconstruct or get from previous providers the better. You need to find someone who is really invested in this complicated puzzle- your depression. My pdoc's have always seen my anxiety as a symptom of my depression. I don't know if that is true or if it matters. But you may find that if your depression is treated you feel less anxious. Or you may need to do what I do which is take meds that are "uppers" and meds that are "downers"
Right now I am taking a real stew and I have really mixed feeling about being on so many meds. Bottom line- I am feeling better.
I am taking:
45mg Remeron for sleep
3 mgs klonopin 2 at night 1 first thing in the am
50 mgs pristiq a SSRI/SNRI AD
75ish mgs provigil I break pieces off a 200 mg tab over the day
600-800 mgs gabapentin to take the edge off the provigil
300 mgs seroquel originally had mild AD effect it's the med I would most like to get off. I think it makes me shakey and has bad long term side effects like diabeties.That's what my meds have looked like for the past couple of years, more than that. I hate being on meds and I'm sure some combos have made me worse not better. But I am also sure that without meds I be dead or at least wish I were. I used to take great comfort lying in bed and imaging various suicide senerios. Boy was I bummed when I realized that the amount of klonopin I had squirreled away was no where near a lethal dose.
Get some good regular talk therapy. My bias is Self psychology. That's what's worked for me. I am seeing the same man I saw in graduate school, over 20 yrs ago. At that time I was bulimic and had seen lots of people who didn't help me and tried meds. He cured me. Tragically over the next twenty years I never thought of going back--it' a long story which I would be happy to tell you. But I'm seeing him again and it's helping. I really believe you need someone long term who's really in there fighting with you and keeping the faith and hope alive when you can't
You need to be as active as you can about getting help. Do you feel like you can find a really good pdoc? Get a consult from someone who's highly respected. It's harder to find a good fit with a therapist.Are there any training institutes where you live? There faculty is a good place to start.
I have to go to therapy. I'll check for a reply when I get back.Zana
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