Posted by rjlockheart on April 19, 2009, at 23:26:16
In reply to Re: Nerve just a blew a ceruit, posted by Amelia_in_StPaul on April 19, 2009, at 13:46:11
just walk into the room, thier laying the freakin coach, make in insult, i make insult right back 7fold, usally put them right back in their place "well, why don't you look at yourself, get a mirror, now what's the reflection? lies, now spell it out" that usally what caused violance. It's argueing with arguement itself.
I just ignore it now, toxic, lie. Coming home, a few years back, it was a diffrent, but 18 is the AGE to leave! i stayed because i thought it was "safe" place, EEEiii wrong awnser! the worst place, now, there where things, I completely admit, got me here, through choice, and it ended, just couple months back, in memories being "manipulated, fragmented". When you go outside, everyone get's in with crowd, i didnt, yet people thought i was intresting....no, i'm not. Then, i started just "dealing" with it, get passive aggressive, alright bubba's, let's watch some golf, talk about the chicken where eatin, is it popeyes' or KFC? talk about "bake and shake" chicken places, anything.... it's a sub-way of saying "I don't want to be here, so slowly walk myself out the door..."
_____________________________________________Enough jib-jab chat, bottem line Zyprexa worked at a time, but the mind changes, the persona changes after....experience. Plus, it made ((((BIG)))) 3 years, finally i'm back down to 160lbs.
___________________________________________"Comfort Zone", i didnt want to let go, and plus, i realized alot of things where not shown, but, that was my fault for not catchin' on. Now, it's so real, it feel's "unreal". A reality Check...heard of it?
Anyways, thanks, by the way, people have asked me "are you sure" yea...excess dopamine is what causes "delusions", little out of reality, yet what is parody, you can hear a room of people talkin gossip about me for fun, that's why i walk in some situation in the past, "what's up, your#1fan is here, you want autographs?".
Plus i see what your saying, in the past, i have written, "hidious", but it's off the subject to get my mind out of reality, because....there's been crap that happened, i just forget about it. While back, 2004, is mainly the starting date here, i trusted everyone.....(another reality check hit 2005) That's why you forget people who are not worth rerembering, that's adaptation.
takecare
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