Posted by X_ander on March 16, 2009, at 5:54:06
In reply to Re: Treatment for emotional numbness??? » X_ander, posted by JadeKelly on March 15, 2009, at 18:46:52
Hey again everyone,
Hi Phillipa, I'm not on antipsychotics, I haven't been for 5 months. Even then it was only for 2 weeks. I got a second opinion in hospital and they said MDD. Before that I felt like this and wasn't on antipsychotics. Anti-psychotics wouldn't help with what I have anyway, they'd be a prophylactic to curb off some possible thing in the future. In which case (some kind of future psychosis) all would be lost. There are no treatments for negative symptoms. There just aren't. Atypicals don't touch them. It would be over.
I know i'm right in that stupid age bracket to develop that stuff. I guess it's either MDD for me or there's no shot at getting out you know? I'm repeating myself now..sigh...my apologies.
Um I go out...I'm just bored when I'm out. I don't see the point. As a result my routine is screwed up. I work 10hrs a week and struggle massively with that. University is impossible cos I have no motivation at all to study, no reward, curiosity. Just flat flat flat. I don't have anxiety or paranoia. In fact I'm a singer in a band so I'm pretty sure I'm not isolated or afraid of being seen by people...but I don't get any enjoyment from interacting with people like I used to. So it's all effort, no reward. In that sense, I'm likely to stay home more often cos there's just nothing I get from being out, except to keep up appearances. It's just so so so tiring. Pretending.
There are no other symptoms besides numbness, detachment, boredom etc. Disorganisation is part of it too. Insomnia from time to time.
Also, I did an rEEG test a while back. It's supposed to tell you what meds you'll respond to. I'm not sure how much faith I have in it. But it said bupropion, venlafaxine are the ones i'd respond to. Tried bupropion, nothing. And that I'd be unresponsive to MAOIs, stimulants, lamictal, lithium, neurontin. Semi-responsive to SSRIs and TCAs. Anti-psychotics weren't on the list hypothetical list it had to choose from.
Not sure if you guys think those things are reliable at all. But yeah I thought I'd mention it.
I'd have thought MAOI too but the test says otherwise. Antipsychotics won't help with it...anhedonia and dopamine receptor antagonism in the mesolimbic region are like partners in crime.
I've been like this for almost 2 years. No change, no worsening, no improvement either.
I think I've answered most things there..happy to answer others. Thoughts on the above??
Cheers to all, Xander.
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