Posted by utopizen on October 24, 2008, at 15:54:06
In reply to Re: I'm still in remission... but I have no drive. » utopizen, posted by azalea on October 24, 2008, at 11:00:27
maybe I am bored.
I have no idea what Dysthymia is. I've heard it thrown around here quite a bit. Atypical depression was what encapsulated what I am in remission from.
Since a kid, up until, say, last couple of years, I've always been a morning person. Although when papers came, I tested limits with all-nighters...
I was on Lexapro 30mg, but had no real reason to stay on it, and al it did since helping me into remission was give me lingering ED. So I went off it like in October. I'd say I felt about same before I went off it as I do now.
I'm on Desoxyn and Klonopin (for ADD + social anxiety). I wouldn't really read into these two meds that much... I've been on 'em when I was energetic and never encountered depression, and I've been on 'em when I was at my worst ever, and they really didn't change much mood wise for me either way. I do need Desoxyn to help me focus.
I have nowhere near levels of anxiety I had back when I was depressed... I'm actually quite grounded feeling, really... but it's helpful on occasion.
But the drive... maybe it's nostalgia, but, I had it. I would jump out of bed in the mornings in college. I would follow a routine. I would eat right. I would take breaks from studying without feeling guilty. I would sleep without feeling guilty.
tim
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