Posted by azalea on October 24, 2008, at 11:00:27
In reply to I'm still in remission... but I have no drive., posted by utopizen on October 23, 2008, at 21:49:16
Are you currently taking any medications?
> I know what clinical depression is, and always will know the difference, having experienced it. So I know where to benchmark things at.
>
> At night, I feel guilty for not having completed things I put off all day, try to cram it in late at night, creating this vicious cycle of sleeping late after going to sleep at 2, maybe 4 AM, and not having much to show from it anyhow.
>
> Maybe it's depression creep, I don't know... all I know is, I recall in college, this year, sophmore year, I was on Effexor, for a year, and it didn't do much for the social anxiety I was taking it for (I hadn't yet been depressed) but I do recall getting out of bed religiously each morning, at 7 AM, going to sleep same time, too... eating at regular meals (okay, I also was on meal plan, but still)... and just vaguely feeling like I would eventually rule the world.
>
> Now I'm lucky if I wake up at noon, I do basically nothing, the 2 courses I do take, I am behind in, and it's just pathetic.
>
> anyone on Effexor think it's realistic/worth it to bring up with my doc prospect of returning to it for another try? I want to feel like I felt when I was 19. I'm 25 now. I want to get out of a long rut... sort of remnants of a depression I had a few years back.
>
> I want to wake up in the morning, and I want to feel like it's not a chore to do it. And when I near bedtime, I don't want to feel a burdensome dread over my shoulders about the mere prospect of entering bed to sleep.
>
> I don't want to think of it. I use to hop into bed and sleep, because it was midnight, and that's when we slept in the dorms in college. I didn't have precipitating clouds of guilt over something so natural as sleeping.
>
> Anyone on Effexor want to explain whether this is absurd for me to tie the drug to my pep level? I don't feel depressed when I talk to folks, I can feel pleasure still, unlike when I had nasty depression... but maybe it's still... low-grade depression?
>
poster:azalea
thread:859032
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/20081016/msgs/859093.html