Posted by your#1fan on March 14, 2008, at 13:26:16
In reply to Re: Just realized something about reality. » your#1fan, posted by yxibow on March 13, 2008, at 5:29:41
*******This rings very true to me -- one comes to a realization that life doesn't always turn out the way you wanted it to be. Its not an illusion -- one could be simply wanting to be living in a past place, its safer, or when one was more confident, or a dozen possible reasons. But there's the Here and Now, the complete reality out there.
We all have our own little realities, the way we carry out our lives, the things we think about, but there is the practicality of either trying to live a life (like for myself, I still wish I was back in the city I went to for college and none of what I experienced would have happened -- true or not, since there's no time machine that I know of, I have to live in the Here and Now.)
This isn't the hallmark of a psychosis or being psychotic in particular, because I believe you would be having a rather distinctly different conversation. Its wistfullness, depression, and mostly yearning for a life that may go beyond your limitations at the moment. Therapy is excellent, at least in my case -- I may be reading my sense of things into this a bit too, so don't take everything with but a grain of salt -- for such a state. Proactive, goal-oriented approaches that may include a lot of things, boosting self confidence, strength, finding out what is your real definition, what really defines you, beyond an illness, CBT if it applies, etc.*********
--In 2005, 2004 i began taken on persona's of myself because before that, i had no idenity exept that i was a teen going to school, was a big annoiying to people, and i didnt have an i idenity. What happened was at the end of high school i built up some walls, or images in my head of people to deal with offender or people who attack. I never went psychotic doing this. But that makes me think....
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*******Yes, at the moment I sense a downward spiral, and its okay to mourn and feel this, but not to eventually get so trapped in this sense that one wants to give up on life. I don't know anything about you but I can sense the depression and self-flagellation, there may be many things you want to discuss with a therapist, but just self-diagnosing is counterproductive and can cause more hurt than good. What is the benefit of self-flagellation -- letting tears out and emotion, that's a different thing.*********It is coming down, the images inside my head, because i told my theprest all about everything, persona's, power people i adopted, and then she said "We out grow our coping mechanisms sometimes, and i have had similar things in the past" So thats whats happening, im out growning my reality. I need to get in "life reality" and live it, istead of thinking of it.
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*******And in time, if one is interested in not further isolating oneself, a host of online dating groups depending on your sexual orientation. Its important to identify yourself as who you are (insert name, positive personal qualities) and not as (the mentally ill person with 7 different problems). That doesn't go forward.--Connceting with people has always been a problenms with me, im either scared, stay in my comfort zone, im going to slow, i need to leap forward into what a normal life is. Not some "projected" dazed life. Getting to know people, getting to know there ways, getting them to know me (many people already know me and think im just a nervous wreck)
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*************It could be the inner resistance -- a protection, unintentional and definitely not malingering. A place to retreat to block out the pain that surrounds oneself now.-- I always had a inner protection mechanism. Since like 2004. I do enjoy to get away from reality alot, going in my own world, maybe a nap, something like that, but fact of the matter. Life, its main normal things is
1)Work (40 hours or more)
2)Working with People
3)Planning
4)Feeling good about life. Not wanting to dread life (as i do at times)
5)Having a stable control over what you do.Thats my thought of what a normal life is.
Whew!
Alright thanks, i had read your posts over and over, but it may help with understanding what people are trying to say......
always.
your#1fan
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