Posted by your#1fan on March 13, 2008, at 0:22:23
I just realized that my world of how im living is an illusion, all i ever thought of myself, its not.....going in reality. I dont live the life i want to live in my head.
Im actually now realizing how much of a low-life i have. My mind is now realizing all the years of masks and fakeness that i put up because i thought it was a guard. It's coming down, like the berlin wall.
I just can't Belive this, i have many people inside me, but i dont know which one is real. But i dont have multiple personalites. It just, i dont know, what do you do when you know your reality is fake? what do you do when realizing your whole world is just a mixture of thoughts, and you not connected with people good.
I never have had good relationships that could last, because the amount of people inside myhead are in 100's, i've looked at many images of powerful men, women, and put them in my head. Only to realize that they in my head.
And really i just found out, the real me inside....is still a kid. What happened during 2005 i dont know,
my whole reality is about to break, because i do think im not real, i think im fake. Somebody, that know's anything about this help!
am i going through a realization or a psychosis?
Im sorry i dont know where to put this because people know me pretty good on psychobabble, not the other boards...
what ever admistrater....point me to a correct board.
poster:your#1fan
thread:817661
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