Posted by your#1fan on October 15, 2007, at 22:59:34
In reply to If your out there, please help me., posted by your#1fan on October 15, 2007, at 20:59:35
It has stopped, for now. When i think about something, and then something that happened, i havent had this kind of emotional surge in years.
I came home from campus and i laid down, took a Xanax, but it just increased.
I'll tell you what happened, my english professor is very cold, she said im sorry your writing is "middle school", i didnt know what to say.... she said you need to drop the course before you flunk.... i mean how, well she does have 150 students to teach, but that was so cold, and i have worked and worked on my writing with a tudor, she just flat out told me "i dont know what to tell you". And then a series of just bad events, depression came on, then past memories that hurt came up and it hit me so hard.
When i wrote the 1st post, i was so upset, but i've recovered. I cant describe the depression or that state of mind..............i was in, im still in it. I called my friends, they just didnt know what to say, because i was so upset, this song just played in my head, i dont even want to even start it again.... i will have a trigger.
Lithium, or something to make emotions go away is needed.
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