Posted by Ines on May 2, 2007, at 16:32:24
In reply to Denial/Shame about Medications..., posted by jealibeanz on May 2, 2007, at 5:43:03
I know what you feel like. When I first got prescribed an antidepressant I was embarrassed to go to the pharmacy, even if noone knew me. I felt like it represented failure to control my feelings. I'm now more comfortable with medication, but I've been off work so many times over this, and it's so humiliating to have to talk about it. Plus a lot of people don't really believe it I think, because it can't be measured, and because I can't cry in front of anyone. I've had a doctor tell me I wasn't a priority because I didn't have something serious like cancer. The thing is, I'd take cancer anytime, for as terrible as that sounds. At least noone thinks you're faking it, you're not in constant mental pain for which noone can find a cure, and you can die with dignity- and you can still take pleasure from your life maybe. A close friend died of cancer when we were 9 years old, it was a terrible shock back then, so painful to see her going, but now I can't help but think that maybe she's better off. I was a really happy kid then, who was to say I'd become depressed for no apparent reason and come to wish I'd never been born... What if the same had happened to her? In that case she had teh easy way out.
Anyway, what a morbid post. I'm sorry. I feel wretched today.
Ines
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