Posted by devunea on May 2, 2007, at 15:48:00
In reply to Re: Denial/Shame about Medications..., posted by jealibeanz on May 2, 2007, at 14:17:45
i can clearly remember sitting in my red honda civic (the college car) and crying and crying when i saw PROZAC on the prescription. i could not believe it or could i bring myself to fill the prescription. it was prescribed for GAD basically. I finally filled it and took it for about ten days until one evening I stopped at a fund raiser for school. i was supposed to have one or two drinks tops and go to my parents house to chaperone my youngest bro on a field trip (the next day). i called my parents starting my 2nd beverage, and they told me to get a taxi home, i was slurring. i had told my doc that i drank socially which i did, but he never told me the effects. ended up being a bad night. so i was very leery of meds at all. i finally found something that works for me after a lot of bad times in the beginning. but it was such a feat for me to realize i needed a med. and more than that i would need it for a bit and if i wanted to stop i couldn't easily. (i take clon.) anyway after a couple years of therapy and hearing over and over again from my doc and therapist that i was causing myself more anxiety and problems by worrying about this medicine than actually taking the med. they both said if i needed i could take this dosage for the rest of my life. (i was 23 and am 28). i have given in to their theory. i cant worry about it, i need it, i am better with it and i have quit feeling bad about it. easier said than done, it took a lot of convincing but i am convinced. and while it may occupy my mind from time to time, i do not feel guilty or less than or bad about it. i refuse. i hope you can feel better about your decisions, whatever they may be.
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