Posted by KayeBaby on April 15, 2007, at 22:25:02
In reply to Re: I'm torn., posted by jealibeanz on April 15, 2007, at 21:17:51
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> Haha, I could schedule an appt. for next month and go in with the bold intention of lying everything I'm thinking, feelings, and wondering right out in front of him.
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> Yet, I know better. It won't happen. We'll probably chat about nothing related to my medications, then he'll ask me right as he walks out the door if I need any refills.
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> Sometimes it's not quite so drastic if I make it reallllly clear to the nurse who rooms me that I'm having major horrible problems with a medication. I have to make it seem very dramatic for the doctor to even bother glancing at their notes.
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> The doctors will always take their own history anyway, plus patients don't always bother to tell the nurse anything. I sometimes don't, just because it's pointless to go in to detail with the LPN and hard not to when discussing the matter. So, I'll just say I'm here for a recheck, I'm fine, let's speed up this process a little.
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> On occasion he'll pop in a decide to focus on my health. I think that's when he's quite pressed for time.
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> I could just be really quiet with the smalltalk, but that almost never happens. We honestly enjoy our visits together. He tries to relate by thinking about things that went on when he was in med school, sometimes giving my suggestions. I like going because he and his PA who I see really enjoy there jobs, and makes me more passionate about the field, especially when I'm up to my eyeballs in textbooks and notes. (I've slept with books or binders on half my bed nearly every night for the past year... weird? ... no, just insane... at least they keep me company:)
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> Yeah, so problem #1 is that we often have little time to discuss my medical concerns in detail.
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> Problem #2 is that I appear far too happy, normal, successful and functional to need high levels of medication and constant monitoring because I am super-sensitive.
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> Problem #3 is that we talk about drugs. We don't talk a whole lot about symptoms. I'm willing to, even though it's mildly awkward, it wouldn't be if it felt like commonplace when I was there. I think he doesn't probe into dept, or even shallowly, regarding psych problems because he doesn't want to embarass me. I'd be OK with it though.(comorbidities... ADHD, fatigue, anxiety, insomnia, ummm depression that I hide... maybe it's easier for him not to have to ask. Too much!).
I have a similar relationship with my Dr. I have 15 minutes with him and we adore each other. He has ADD and I am so interested in neurology, pharmacology that we are just all over the place.I was depperate for help when I first went to him about 3 years ago. He was the 1st Doc I had seen that was willing to help me. The one I saw before him (only 1 appt)was just mean and ugly to me. My Dr. sees many ADD clients and is so happy to treat them because they respond well and quickly to the right med. it is gratifying for him to see such a positive turn around for them so fast as opposed to some of the other conditions.
I feel hesitant to ever let him down or make him doubt his diagnosis of adult ADD by admitting to any depression or what have you. I also don't want to ever seem to take advantage of his trust in me and the honor he bestows me by making me feel a friend rather than a 'case'
I have so much to say to you about this because of the similarities. Can you believe that I am agonizing over the same quandry that you are.
My Dr. is fearless when prescribing. He is no fool but will not be bullied by anyone and he prescribes for his patients as he sees fit. This is something he made clear on our first visit. The one med that works so well for me is a rarely prescribes class III stim that for some reason makes him more uncomfortable than any of the other well know ones such as Adderall, Dexedrine etc. I am trying to adapt to the meds he wants me to take but they just don't work as well. I have no idea why but I just am not quite well any of the others.
So, will be out of my preferred med in a few days and have enough of the other to last me about a month. I am going to give it all I got but this has not worked out for me in the past.
Forgive me if I am projecting too much on to you of my issues.
I just wanted you to know why I am so interested in your situation and have so much to say about it.
Feel free to send some advice my way, JB.
Peace,
Kaye
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