Posted by deniseuk190466 on March 27, 2007, at 15:56:11
In reply to I was just thinking of my life before depression., posted by football on March 24, 2007, at 23:25:17
Me too, I'd happily give up the rest of my life for one year of the pre-depressed me.
Oh for the days when I couldn't reel off practically every psychiatric drug going. Oh for the days when I didn't spend practically every non working hour trawling the web for an answer.
Oh for the days, when I was actually terrified of dying and didn't fantasise about it.
Oh for the days when I got up went to work and then felt motivated to do things in the evening.
Oh for the days when I felt alive and glad to be.
Oh for the days when I empathised when somebody had died instead of feeling secretly envious.
Oh for the days when I didn't feel like I had something to hide.
Oh for the days when I looked forward to something other than my next Psychiatrist appointment.
Oh for the days when I didn't constantly ruminate about what drug I should try next.
Oh for the days when my boyfriend felt like my equal and not my carer.
Having said that I did have a good spell between 2003 and 2006.
Somebody send me a time machine please but then I'd have to go through the last six years all over again.
Denise
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