Posted by Maximus on August 24, 2006, at 18:06:06
In reply to Re: I agree: Who cares about weight if med helps? » UgottaHaveHOPE, posted by Maxime on August 23, 2006, at 23:29:39
I'm anorexic! I hate myself and the way I look. I feel and look HUGE. I can't look in the mirror. I eat less than 300 calories a day. I exercise. I abuse ephedra and laxatives. Yes, I know better ... but my brain doesn't. And there is nothing glamourous about anorexia and being told I look like I have cancer (which isn't the case now but I am working on it). I've gone into cardiac arrest from laxative abuse.
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> I need my eating disorder. I NEED IT! No one can take it away from me. NO ONE!
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> I've had it. I hate this place!
Hi Maxime,This is disturbing, to say the least. Actually, do you have the skeletal look? Prisoners in Nazi prison were given 400 calories a day, with the result we know.
>I need my eating disorder. I NEED IT! No one can >take it away from me. NO ONE!
If i understood it well, you have chosen to stay ill and unwell? The nature of that illness prevents yourself to make clever compromises.
It seems clear to me that you have no choice but hospitalization. What do you think about it?
I'm sorry for the lack of visits at the hospital, they surely need more empathy toward you... You deserve so much better.
For the meds part, i'm not a doctor, but it appears clearly to me that you could benefit greatly from a treatment for Borderline disorder + ECT. Labels aren't important. Treatments are.
Well, what to say, keep us informed. Be strong and DO SOMETHING!
(((Maxime)))
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