Posted by UgottaHaveHOPE on August 24, 2006, at 3:23:42
In reply to Re: I agree: Who cares about weight if med helps? » UgottaHaveHOPE, posted by Maxime on August 23, 2006, at 23:29:39
Dear Maxime, I have been on both ends of that spectrum, skinny and feeling terrible or overweight and feeling good. I wasn't making a personal comment to you. I don't know you or anyone else on this board. And to everyone, feel free to twist what I say because I don't take anything in here personal.
When I was skinny (from anxiety, dropping 20 lbs. in a week), people told me I looked "better than ever." If they only knew I felt worse than ever.
> I'm anorexic! I hate myself and the way I look. I feel and look HUGE. I can't look in the mirror. I eat less than 300 calories a day. I exercise. I abuse ephedra and laxatives. Yes, I know better ... but my brain doesn't. And there is nothing glamourous about anorexia and being told I look like I have cancer (which isn't the case now but I am working on it). I've gone into cardiac arrest from laxative abuse.
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> I need my eating disorder. I NEED IT! No one can take it away from me. NO ONE!
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> I've had it. I hate this place!
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> Maxime
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