Posted by Doug_Saving_The_team on April 9, 2006, at 1:58:52
In reply to Re: Meds HAVE RUINED MY 4 YEARS IN COLLEGE, and CAREER, posted by bipolarspectrum on April 8, 2006, at 23:55:00
bps,
thank you for your thoughtful post, especially your points about this giving me the urgency to live. i will definitely check out your recommended reading. you are amazingly lucky that medication made you concentrate more and perform really well in school. I really wish that was the case with me. unfortunately, it's been nothing but poor performance after poor performance. i've reached a point where i want my old self, anxiety/depression and all. for me, achievement is EVERYTHING, and I'm DYING inside that I have not been the very best in school. It's KILLING my psyche -- my confidence has been shattered, and as I said, college WASTED. i have been more social on ADs than I otherwise would have been, but i want my old shy, semi-timid life back. i want all of the weird quirks i had because that's what made me unique and ultimately what made me so successful!! WOW THIS SUCKS!! If only the ADs did not destroy my academics and overall performance. Here are the effects I've had on AD's:
*poor concentration
*poor memory
*low motivation
*high apathywhich have all led to poor grades, despite large amounts of extra studying.
4 YEARS WASTED... i should be at some big ibank or prv equity firm... instead, what? wasted, nothing. s***...
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