Posted by CEK on March 26, 2006, at 23:00:34
In reply to No (Re: Do you hate yourself?, posted by alohashirt on March 25, 2006, at 6:22:32
Yep! I hate myself. Always have. Nobody would know it because I've always tried to be friendly and speak to people even if I didn't want to. People think I'm outgoing but really I hate being in public around people. I always feel like I don't messure up. I always had plenty of friends in high school but never did the party thing because I always felt like everyone looked better than me and I felt very uncomfortable. Still am this way in social occations. Even family parties. I hate getting up in the morning and having to look in the mirror and figure out what I'm going to wear. It all looks like crap. Even when I'm not fat as a cow, I still look bad to me. I hate pictures of myself! My husband gets mad because he says my kids will have nothing to remember me by because I have very little pictures of myself and don't let anyone take pictures of me. I don't get all the people that get Glamour Shots taken or do the family portraits every year. I couldn't do it! I always try to treat people good and live a good life but always get cr*pped on and it does no good. I too don't know how so people walk around so confidant. They must have better genes or something. Or maybe they feel just as awful and they too are masking it for the rest of the world.
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