Posted by TylerJ on March 15, 2006, at 5:56:20
In reply to Re: Strong suicide thougths, posted by tepiaca on March 14, 2006, at 23:28:32
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> I am here Im sorry Im sorry , I dont
> want you to think that I just want to call your
> attention believe me I am suffering a lot. I am
> bearing all this pain. I didn´t call the ER , I just tell my family what I had in mind , they cried telling me not to do this thing. I tried
> to convince them that I will finally stop
> suffering If I am dead , they can´t understand this . I know this is not something normal and
> that nobody in this world would accept someone to
> commit suicide. Believe me I can understand
> I have a mental problem, what I cant accept is that Im going to live like this forever. I CANT
> Tell me that there is something that is going to
> take this fear away . I cant go to the doctor just to hear the same and the same, SSRIS , TCAS , BENZOS , I know all that meds , they dont
> do anything , I need something really strong .
> Im increasing my Nardil dose to 60 but I cant
> find relief to my depression yet.
> Guys just help me that this fear go away, I could
> live with depression I think , but no with this
> horrible fear . I would exchange one of my arms
> or one of my eyes or my ears or anything to be
> better, I would try to help others always, I just
> want mental peace, this is the worst punishment
> me and my family could ever received.
> I can´t kill myself , but when I think that I have to be like this all my life is when I doubt
> it, and its when I try to miss all that my family and you guys tell me in your posts. I just want relief of my fear. I need to work, who is gonna give me money? . I have thougth Im schizoprenic , this is not a common depression, this is a nigthmare.
> Im not doing anything bad, just tell me there is a med that can make me be a normal person, with no fear, tell me please I need something to fix my life.
> I accept I was not like this one year ago, I accept I can be better, feel better, but I can not accept that I can be happy, I never have been happy since all this started , I need a miracle
> only a miracle can help me now . Im a here in front of the PC, Im gonna stay here sit for more time
> I dont know what to tell you. I read all your posts, I appreciatte your concern for this
> crazy boy.
> guys think you have the same fear I have, what
> would you do? , tell me cause I have to do something , I know there are many smart guys out there, what do you suggest me to do for the fear?Hi Tep, After reading your post, I want you to know that YES I've experienced pretty much the same thing you are going through...it's awful I know, but I kept fighting back even though sometimes I didn't think could go on even a minute more. And now finally I'm doing better. Taking my life would have been a terrible thing to do to my Family...my wife and our two beautiful boys, my sisters and brother, etc.
Your not going to like what I'm going to say,if at all possible come to the U.S. But even if you can't I think you should be hospitolized for at least 3 days in the care of a Psychiatrist. Ithink they need to run many tests on you,i.e., thryroid, hormonal, blood, and complete mental evalution, So they can determine an accurate diagnosis for you. Then they can treat you with the right medicine, CBT, etc. Can they do this for you in Mexico? I relly think this is so impt. because I remember you telling me that you didn't really know what your diagnosis is. Otherwise, everythings going to be hit and miss.
Many things need to be ruled out for a correct diagnosis.So, please find a way to get a good Pdoc, have tests run, and then he and you can decide a medication or medications to treat your illness. I know you hurting really bad Tepi, and I'm very sad for and worried about you. Please stay in touch with us and I'll continue to pray for you as well.Your friend, Tyler
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