Posted by tepiaca on March 14, 2006, at 23:28:32
In reply to Re: Strong suicide thougths » tepiaca, posted by Jakeman on March 14, 2006, at 21:16:36
I am here Im sorry Im sorry , I dont
want you to think that I just want to call your
attention believe me I am suffering a lot. I am
bearing all this pain. I didn´t call the ER , I just tell my family what I had in mind , they cried telling me not to do this thing. I tried
to convince them that I will finally stop
suffering If I am dead , they can´t understand this . I know this is not something normal and
that nobody in this world would accept someone to
commit suicide. Believe me I can understand
I have a mental problem, what I cant accept is that Im going to live like this forever. I CANT
Tell me that there is something that is going to
take this fear away . I cant go to the doctor just to hear the same and the same, SSRIS , TCAS , BENZOS , I know all that meds , they dont
do anything , I need something really strong .
Im increasing my Nardil dose to 60 but I cant
find relief to my depression yet.
Guys just help me that this fear go away, I could
live with depression I think , but no with this
horrible fear . I would exchange one of my arms
or one of my eyes or my ears or anything to be
better, I would try to help others always, I just
want mental peace, this is the worst punishment
me and my family could ever received.
I can´t kill myself , but when I think that I have to be like this all my life is when I doubt
it, and its when I try to miss all that my family and you guys tell me in your posts. I just want relief of my fear. I need to work, who is gonna give me money? . I have thougth Im schizoprenic , this is not a common depression, this is a nigthmare.
Im not doing anything bad, just tell me there is a med that can make me be a normal person, with no fear, tell me please I need something to fix my life.
I accept I was not like this one year ago, I accept I can be better, feel better, but I can not accept that I can be happy, I never have been happy since all this started , I need a miracle
only a miracle can help me now . Im a here in front of the PC, Im gonna stay here sit for more time
I dont know what to tell you. I read all your posts, I appreciatte your concern for this
crazy boy.
guys think you have the same fear I have, what
would you do? , tell me cause I have to do something , I know there are many smart guys out there, what do you suggest me to do for the fear?
poster:tepiaca
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