Posted by willyee on March 1, 2006, at 23:37:22
Well today i seen my Doc,and normaly ive had rough visits,as she is a tough little lady,but usualy all is ok by the time i leave.
Well i had to go in today with the displeasuring task of telling her,on my own fault for the first time i was short on meds,i recently had a trip to NY and i consumed more benzos then i relaised,this is not an excuse just my fyi it was my fault,i thought i was more ready for a trip as such and i apppearently was not.
So many things went wrong in this 20 min appt its unbelivable.First we addressed running short on klonopin,never in 5 years had i usualy cause i cut them and in ny i couldent cut them on the move as well.Anyway she was furious,and finaly gave me a re-script after near choking me.Then i had to tell her,unlike the OLD parnate program i was in,this new coverage where she writes scripts monthly shes not giving me enough.I told her its a fact 90 mg is a standred high dose but she said 60 and she was going over that,i told her id bring in a copy of a most recent data sheet showing 90 mg to be a max dose.Anyway she gave me my next script at that but assured me she would not go a single mg higher.
Then she went back to what she has been saying,that she wants me on lexapro and she really wants me off parnate.Im not stable now how can she think of having me two weeks off a med unstable to go on a med that LIKLY will not work,this could be the end for me.I failed on every ssris there is every one.So she gave me her plan of action and them.......
****THE KICKER,after being the one to iniatly inform her of the patch,from the get go,letting her know it was something i had hopes in,i mentioned,"well we still have the patch" she then turned to me and said,I WAS NOT A CANDIDTAITE for it,she said she did some reading,and that since the dose of the patch is so low,she dident see how it would make sense to work when im already on such a HIGH maoi dose now of parnate.
But what about the fact its a patch,a new method of medication firstly?What about the fact being on parnate so long COULD BE THE ACTUAL DISADVANTAGE" and not a matter of dosage just tolerance,and i might respond to the patch.
What about the fact that its a different med period and a option.I could not believe my ears,after all we talked about she shot it down that quickly.
Then the final sword to the gut was she informed me she is leaving the state and moving in a few months.And that is why she wanted me on lexapro.I asked her if i should wait to check on a few docs and she said wait till she leaves,WELL no way,i am going to see a doc or two i know well this week to explain my situation and ill have 3 months to work on having this med prescribed.
The entire day went horrid like this,my stomach is in a knot,good thing i dident mention i was also out of the xanax,lol ill just wait for the refill date is all.
Its just a giant mess,im going no where,and hell dont even know if the patch would work.Im just gonna make all of this a serious thing till its sstraight,fixing all the details ,taking my meds more correctly,all of it will be my job now,no more games i dont wana end up on a bad road which is where i am heading.I have some hope if i do take things serious i can get these problems fixed,im just glad i have a decent amount of time.
Thankd for the air,all in my prayers tonight,
poster:willyee
thread:614865
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