Posted by Jazzed on June 1, 2005, at 12:23:40
In reply to i want to die........, posted by woolav on May 24, 2005, at 21:36:28
> i dont know what to do...
Hi Woolav,
I'm SO sorry that you feel this way. I've been there, so I understand. I think maybe you might suggest to your p-doc that, when you're stable, to wean you off the Prozac. See the following:
http://www.psycheducation.org/bipolar/controversy.htm
If he won't listen or consider it, maybe you should seek a 2nd opinion from someone who specializes in bipolar. I haven't been on this board much, so I'm not familiar with your situation. After reading the article that I posted above it seems that the Prozac could be inducing more rapid cycling, AND could be causing each episode of highs and lows to be worse, "kindling".As far as your husband goes. Can't your therapist or p-doc make him understand that this is beyond your control, that's it's due to a chemical imbalance. It's no more in control than if you had any other medical condition. Does he realize how his comments affect you? Are you able to tell him, or write him a letter telling him exactly how you feel, and that you are more than aware of the things you do, but that his pointing them out after the fact only causes you to sink into depression, and that if he truly wants to help you he'll stop badgering you and try to help you instead.
And, as far as feeling suicidal, please keep yourself involved, either on the web, with friends, relatives, anyone who can take your mind off of it for any length of time. Does exercise help? I have to get out and exercise 3 times a day to keep the suicidal feelings at bay, but I do understand that it doesn't work for everyone, and sometimes you're so depressed you can't get yourself out there. Try to think less about an active plan. The less it's planned, the safer you will be.
Jazzed
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