Posted by theo on April 23, 2005, at 8:23:09
In reply to Re: Keppra » theo, posted by SLS on April 23, 2005, at 7:20:53
> Hi Theo.
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> > When I took it I felt a little clumsy at 250, 500 then when I hit 750 (250mg 3 times daily) it was like a wave of alert clarity. The higher I went the more intense it got, which means I got a little over assertive above 750mg.
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> Why did you stop taking it?
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Hey Scott,Sorry this is a little long, but also need to babble and get some input.
I was still feeling a little depression, so my doc added Lamictal instead of an SSRI.
At the time, I had never tried Lamictal and I was a little overwhelmed about taking two anticonvulsants. I really didn't have any side effects on Keppra alone but when the Lamictal was added, I had bloodshoot eyes and various side effects that were bothersome but did pass somewhat. At that point I wanted to get a true read on the Lamictal, so that's why I stopped the Keppra. I also stopped the Lamictal and was off meds for about 2 months just to see how I really felt since I haven't been off meds since I quit drinking 2 years ago. I'm glad I took a break from meds because I've learned that most of my nervous anxiety was from some SSRI's and Lamictal. I was suprised in that I tried Concerta 18mg and had no anxiety. My pdoc would never let me try a stim because she said it would make me a nervous wreck. It helped some but I would not consider it good for monotherapy.
After being off meds, I can get by, but probably shouldn't make myself suffer. I think I'm finally getting passed my denial and realizing I need something, but what? I have this low grade feeling of negative energy (like a dog with his tail between his legs) and feel like I'm stuck and going nowhere. I'm 40 and feel like I've lost all direction and feel good about nothing, which in itself is depressing. It's kind of weird because I had these feelings even as a young child, always scared to get involved, always avoid situations and feeling inadequate. I could also never make a commitment, which probably explains why when I'm on one med, I'm wondering if something else would be better. Another good habit I have is when I do make a mistake or do something embarrassing, I'll obsess about it for days instead of just dusting myself off and going forward.
I'm now stuck on whether I need an antidepressant, Depakote, Lithium, maybe try imipramine? I'm frustrated because I know if I go to my pdoc, her guess of what med to try will probably be no more logical than mine since you don't know till you try.
I feel so exhausted about thinking about what to try next and so fed up with whatever I'm feeling. Don't know whether I'm unipolar depression with underlying anxiety(OCD), BPII, ADD.
Any input based off of how I'm feeling would be greatly appreciated.
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