Posted by SDA on November 23, 2004, at 4:07:15
In reply to Re: seeking insight with brain fog/depression/sleep..., posted by bethola291 on November 22, 2004, at 1:26:01
How long ago did you discontinue your "street drugs"? Alot of what you're experiencing could be the aftermath/withdrawal effects of those drugs.
As for me... I feel like I'm about to give up on this crusade. Ever heard the song "Evaporated" by Ben Folds? Well, that's where my life is headed now. Its only now in hindsight that I'm able to see that where I've ended up is the result of simple cause and effect. After spending my entire adolecent life on mind-altering medications, its not too hard to believe that I'd turn out pretty messed up. It was a short term solution that dragged on way too long, and resulted in developmental whip-lash when I stopped taking the drugs. It feels like there's a big vacuous void where my teenage years should have been, and I'm left to construct a personality out of the harsh lessons I've learned over the past year.
I'm willing to do whatever it takes to get back what I've lost, but I just don't know what that is. If I've never really been myself, how will I know when to be satisfied and move forward with life? The sad truth is that we have very little time on this planet, and we only get one ride. I just hope none of us have to spend it all searching for some kind of cure that may not even exist.
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