Posted by hope4best on November 21, 2004, at 19:35:45
In reply to Re: Too sad to sleep, to sad to stay awake, posted by midwestgirl on November 21, 2004, at 0:53:19
Thank you so much for your very helpful words. It made me feel so much better to know people out there understand how I feel. I haven't been online b/c I broke my wrist and it's a little hard to type with one hand. It's hard to tell if this current feeling of despair is the fact that I have to wear this cast till 12/24 or b/c of his indiscretion, or both. I have to give credit to Cymbalta for helping me be less emotional and more logical. In the past I would have been upset for who knows how long. But now I don't know what I feel. The downside to being "unemotional" (for lack of a better word) is that now I'm not sure what I feel. Tired, but calm. I guess that's a good thing. Maybe a little TOO mellow (shouldn't I be spitting mad still?)--instead I'm kind of "whatever"...just taking it easy and not discussing anything with him but being cordial enough. It feels weird not to know how I feel, but it's still gotta be better than the old me, where the anger and adreneline would likely add fuel to the fire. I have read and reread your words and it helps me to feel strong. Thank you so much for taking the time to help me when I really, really needed it.
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