Posted by tom_traubert on November 18, 2004, at 21:24:17
In reply to Re: Can my medication be causing this?, posted by tom_traubert on November 18, 2004, at 21:03:05
Actually, I should clarify--the ice cream thing probablyy isn't the best example, because it contains no possibility of threat. OCD makes things so confusing because whatever becomes the intrusive thought has some, even if microscopic, way of being a threat. Like thinking about the past== why am I thinking about all this? There must be something buried in the past, some anger or repressed emotion that is causing my illness. I have to find out what it is OR ELSE. It's the OR ELSE that gives any ocd thought its power. For many with ocd compulsions, the object of their compulsion is secondary to the ocd. People know that their hands are clean, but they experience a visceral dread that something terrible is going to happen, so they keep washing. You know, on a deep level, that the intrusive thought is irrational, but the anxiety and fear that surrounds it is too powerful. The thought is always secondary to the fear at what the thought might mean about you and you mental health. 'oh no, i'm thinking about [any intrusive thought] again. I'm going to freak out. I'm going crazy' and the depressing thoughts come in about how you can't get over it and how you wish you were dead because of it.
Sorry, I kind of went off topic there. I don't mean to belittle your concern over your medication. It could possibly play a role, but knowing ocd, I don't see it as the main cause. I also know it's incredibly and horribly difficult for you, and I'm not trying to underestimate your evaluation of the situation.
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