Posted by cerodwen on November 8, 2004, at 23:01:08
In reply to Re: Topomax Lamictal introspection » cerodwen, posted by Soulnik on November 8, 2004, at 12:06:19
Hi Soulnik,
thanks for writing back. it just really bothers me that I still suffer from the debilitating downs of this disease when I hear that "so many" people just go on lithium and never suffer any symptoms again. well i tried lithium, and i gained 100 lbs! argh! i had to switch meds before i could lose it.
sometimes it seems like no one is paying any attention to me.
I'm feeling better than I did when I posted last though. I had a nice conversation with my housemate, and she said she thought of me as a friend. Which was nice in a way and sad in a way too because we've lived together for a year and a half and she is one of my closest friends.
I'm really stressed about figuring out which classes i'm going to take next quarter, and I'm really mad that my university won't give me credit for a B.S. even though I've got all the classes I need, except I have taken a non-calculus based physics instead of the calc based physics.
I don't know what I'm going to do after I graduate, which scares the hell out of me. I'm thinking i'll just get a job here in town, but it's hard to find jobs.
I'm worried about money and most of all I just worry about myself. I worry that I'm not capable of leading a normal life. Why aren't my meds working to keep me from getting depressed???!?!?!?! That's what theyr'e supposed to do! I've been bipolar for AGES now, and why hasn't my doctor figured this out yet!! I'm SO MAD.
Thanks for listening, please let me know if you've been though this too, or are facing similiar problems.
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