Posted by cerodwen on November 7, 2004, at 22:37:41
Hi everybody.
I'm feeling pretty depressed right now. I'm thinking it's the wintery weather kicking in, but I'm also wondering if maybe my meds are starting to "wear off". Have you ever heard of something like this? I've been on topomax for maybe about 3 years at this point. Probably on Lamictal for 1.
Also, I have a question about relationships. As a bipolar person, I'm having a lot of trouble connecting with my friends and forming an intimate relationship with a lover. Do other bipolars out there have this problem? Is this something to do with being bipolar, or is it just me? When I was 18, my stepdad committed suicide, which precipitated the onslaught of my disorder, and then after my first manic episode (and it was a doozy) my best friend in the whole wide world stopped speaking to me and never spoke to me again (her mom filed a restraining order).
In any case, I have trouble trusting people and I'd really like to hear from people across the board, about how they made it through being diagnosed and how they manage their relationships, because I'm feeling very isolated and alone right now, and I would really like to be able to express feelings about how hard it is for me sometimes, but I feel like there exists a gulf between me and my friends.
I am "in the closet" about my disorder, and I also wonder how that works for other people out there about how many of their friends know and if people still like them, or just.... I don't know.
I've had verbal diahrea, but I'm going to stop and see what kind of feedback I get. Thanks for listening.
poster:cerodwen
thread:413082
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