Posted by Soulnik on November 8, 2004, at 12:06:19
In reply to Topomax Lamictal introspection, posted by cerodwen on November 7, 2004, at 22:37:41
Hey There,
I have bipolar 2 and have been taking Topamax for about a year and just started Lamictal. I am severly depressed and my doctor wants to start me on Lexapro. Aside from my opposition to being his chemistry experiment, I am thinking that I may go ahead and try it because I too am having some serious social issues as well.
I am having a lot of problems connecting with new people and my old friends have been avoiding me for some time. I'm not sure if I am too unpredictable with the mood swings or too sad and depressed or what, but they have made it clear that they do not want to be around me. Most of my conversation revolves around how bad I feel and if it doesn't I am just aware of how awkard I am socally. And I think this is a relatively new thing for me. Or maybe I no longer have the ability to pretend? I don't know. I get nervous or tense and my humour is dreary and often inappropriate. (OK, I think it's funny but most people think it's "dark," for lack of a better word.) I feel desperately isolated and it just exacerbates my depresssion. I can't remember the last time anyone touched me (sexually or otherwise).
My friends know about my bipolar 2 and at first were very supportive. In fact, they were relieved to finally have an explanation because it explained so much of my behavior. But now they are mostly just kind of over it and over me. I wish I could just get some kind of stability. Is that even possible?
Ok, so that's my response to your very interesting topic.
Peace.
poster:Soulnik
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