Posted by chemist on July 12, 2004, at 16:05:51
In reply to end of rope, posted by platinumbride on July 9, 2004, at 1:41:35
hello there, chemist here. i wanted to post only to say that i think the level of support - as you note in subsequent posts - in this community is of tremendous value, and it's due to all those folks who reply to our posts. anyhow, what i'm getting at is, thanks to all posters and, in this particular case, my hat is off to all those who have come to your rescue with very valid and workable alternatives to which i can hardly augment. my best to you, and of course should you need to shoot an email, please do so to the following address: todd at lanczos dot cm dot utexas dot edu. with warmest wishes and a request to keep 'em coming, tjm aka chemist
> I am really at a loss as to where my medication can go now. The last real relief I had was celexa and lamictal two years ago. Pooped out.
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> I got good results for a while from zoloft, and once from paxil, but after a lot of extra weight from all these, they pooped.
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> I am BPII, so we concentrated on finding the right mood stablizer. After topamax, trilpetal and lamictal.....I come up with a zero.
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> Lexapro was a joke, but I thank it for at least another 20 lbs.
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> Remeron - same deal, just gained more weight from it.
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> My forray into the world of maoi was a low dose selegiline. It got my blood pressure up and made me a chronic insomniac, but i guess the blood pressure thing makes all maois a no go (fine, my doc won't prescribe parnate anyway)
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> Wellburtin seemed to be similar: while I had the insomnia and anxiety, I got some energy. When those SEs abated, I was left with little but a pill that took away my desire to chain smoke.
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> Tricyclics are out of the question, it seems, because I am 100 lbs over weight now.......
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> So...what is a girl to do?
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> Because I am having some issues with my menstrual cycle, my pdoc doesn't want to try more stuff, lest they mask any true hormonal issues. OK....I can wait...
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> But really, what am I waiting for?
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> I toy with trying effexxor again, but if it didnt work the first 6 week trial, why would it work now?
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> Same is true of prozac.......but I only did that for 3 weeks...couldn't afford to up the dosages.
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> Zonegran seems to be the next possible MS, but I had n o luck with topamax, so why should this work? Lithium scares me, and depakote is out of the question. Apparently it can also wreak havoc with the menstrual cycle.
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> So I just put band aids on things. I take neurontin and klonopin for the anxiety that comes from knowing that if there is not more to life than all this, it is really not worth living. Then I smoke pot to make it all even better for the moment.....
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> This is no life.
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> But I really want to get better.
> So I am asking if there are options I am missing, and if someone can help.
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> My pdoc just pulls suggestions out of a hat, and is very anti-effexxor. He is inclined to put me on a high dose of zoloft (the drug I was taking when I tried to commit suicide!!! ) (Not blaming the drug, but why would another 100 mgs help????)
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> Please share experiences and such.........
> It is looking so very bleak to me......I spend more time than I care to trying to end my life and make it look like an accident. Surely I was put on this earth to do more than just that.
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> Thanks,
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> D
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