Posted by platinumbride on July 9, 2004, at 1:41:35
I am really at a loss as to where my medication can go now. The last real relief I had was celexa and lamictal two years ago. Pooped out.
I got good results for a while from zoloft, and once from paxil, but after a lot of extra weight from all these, they pooped.
I am BPII, so we concentrated on finding the right mood stablizer. After topamax, trilpetal and lamictal.....I come up with a zero.
Lexapro was a joke, but I thank it for at least another 20 lbs.
Remeron - same deal, just gained more weight from it.
My forray into the world of maoi was a low dose selegiline. It got my blood pressure up and made me a chronic insomniac, but i guess the blood pressure thing makes all maois a no go (fine, my doc won't prescribe parnate anyway)
Wellburtin seemed to be similar: while I had the insomnia and anxiety, I got some energy. When those SEs abated, I was left with little but a pill that took away my desire to chain smoke.
Tricyclics are out of the question, it seems, because I am 100 lbs over weight now.......
So...what is a girl to do?
Because I am having some issues with my menstrual cycle, my pdoc doesn't want to try more stuff, lest they mask any true hormonal issues. OK....I can wait...
But really, what am I waiting for?
I toy with trying effexxor again, but if it didnt work the first 6 week trial, why would it work now?
Same is true of prozac.......but I only did that for 3 weeks...couldn't afford to up the dosages.
Zonegran seems to be the next possible MS, but I had n o luck with topamax, so why should this work? Lithium scares me, and depakote is out of the question. Apparently it can also wreak havoc with the menstrual cycle.
So I just put band aids on things. I take neurontin and klonopin for the anxiety that comes from knowing that if there is not more to life than all this, it is really not worth living. Then I smoke pot to make it all even better for the moment.....
This is no life.
But I really want to get better.
So I am asking if there are options I am missing, and if someone can help.My pdoc just pulls suggestions out of a hat, and is very anti-effexxor. He is inclined to put me on a high dose of zoloft (the drug I was taking when I tried to commit suicide!!! ) (Not blaming the drug, but why would another 100 mgs help????)
Please share experiences and such.........
It is looking so very bleak to me......I spend more time than I care to trying to end my life and make it look like an accident. Surely I was put on this earth to do more than just that.Thanks,
D
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