Posted by wayne on April 4, 2004, at 9:15:18
This girl and me started dating about 2yrs ago. It was nothing serious, we both were just looking for a good time and we laughed for hours on the phone. At the time I was also dating other girls, not sleeping with them, but just getting to know them better and things like that nature. My ex and me began hooking up about 1 month after we met, it was very harmless and it reminded me of the girl I had dated for about five years before this. I kept telling myself this was just a rebound, and that I wasn’t into this girl, and that this would probably last only a month at the most. One month became 3, and she popped the question to me asking me if we were ever going to be more than just dating. It took me by surprise, and told her I would have to think about it cause like I said I was just in a long relationship before.
Things between us kept getting better, so I decided that I wanted to only be with her and be "boyfriend-girlfriend". For the first 8 months things were pretty rocky, we argued a lot, but we both had a burning passion for each other that made us look past anything. I finally stopped convincing myself that I just liked this girl and took it upon myself to tell her that I was falling in love with her. Things were still rocky with us arguing, but the relationship itself was the best, so much affection, so much time we spent together, the sincerity of the love making, everything was fine besides the arguing.
Fast forward now to my birthday night, I haven’t had a drink in about a month, and for me that was a big deal. I invited her to come with me to a bar, all my friends were going to be there and it was going to be a blast. I prewarned her that I didn’t want to get into any dumb arguments, and that the alcohol would probably instigate something especially cause we were going to get so drunk. Well the night went pretty smoothly until I got home. We were both so drunk, and my phone rings about 3 am. Right off the bat she gets pissed and starts yelling at me. I tried to show her who called me but she wouldn’t listen to me cause she was so pissed. I grabbed her arm and was like calm down, it was just one of my friends and that’s when she just flipped out. She started punching me and then pushed me in my face. I reacted and pushed her back in her face twice, I didn’t even realize how stupid I was for doing that I should have just grabbed her arms or just walked away, but I didn’t. I can’t believe in that one second that I reacted, it changed my whole life. She left me that night, saying that I hit her and that she doesn’t want to be with anybody like that. I didn’t hit her, I didn’t punch her I didn’t choke her, nothing like that at all. Our relationship never went in that direction and never would, but she is convinced that I went overboard and hit her and its probably going to happen again. I know that I would never hurt her, I love this girl so much I don’t think anybody can realize how much pain I am really in. She told me that she loves me so much and that she has strong feelings for me but she cant be with me cause of what happened. She doesn’t return my phone calls, or my emails, and I just saw her at a bar and her friends would not let her come and talk to me. I am so lost and hurt, cause everyone who knows me knows I am not like this and I am not ever going to be hitting girls especially anybody that I love. The reason why I hurt so bad is cause I am the reason for the end, how can I ask her back in my life cause I feel like she has to act tough in front of her friends otherwise they would look down on her.
poster:wayne
thread:332439
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